Waves of ideas

I've written drafts of this post for well over a month now. There were grand visions of what I would write about a year after I leapt into the unknown from a wonderful career and team at Microsoft: my deep learnings and unlearnings, the witty stories I have about becoming self employed with a neurotic dog at home, the amazing insights I've had in becoming a coach and living in alignment with my values, and the joy I've realized in becoming a more holistic human being. The unexpected delight of new friendships, new teachers and mentors, new connections with old friends, and the elation in finding the love of my life.

And then, like everyone, my plans changed. So I had a new vision - something to do with sharing great advice, great lessons, great wisdom. And there's no shortage of wonderful examples I've learned from recently. I've been inspired by the beautiful posts fellow coaches, teachers, consultants and others have written full of practical advice and moving stories.  People giving their time, their gifts and talents so freely.  But still, I couldn't get the creative juices flowing.

I admit I have been very frustrated that I let the uncertainty and ebbs and flows of this strange new world cloud my visions of grand writing. My MO is about getting things done, not holding back! About overcoming, of being strong, of being the rock for everyone. The Achiever in me has been cringing and doing some self-flagellation for sure.

So I suppose that's the lesson I need to work on right now. Being graceful with myself and acknowledging that this is a chance for rest. For paying attention to energy and what I need in order to show up strong - first for myself and then for others. For reveling in the beauty and connections that have come my way. For really being present with the ones around me and the ones I’m talking to over video.

As I type about the world that's opened up to me in the past thirteen months, the other lesson is gratitude. I don't have any idea what will happen in the next year. But I do know that the leap I have taken has changed me forever. That's pretty grand stuff.